Butterfly Catcher

2005-08-22T22:00:00.000-07:00

vern http://www.vernica--.blogspot.com
hern http://www.hern-thirteen.blogspot.com

see you there . thanks for visiting people ... !

cheers.

2005-08-15T20:27:00.000-07:00

... oi oi oi oi oi oi oi oi oi oi oi oi oi oi ............ bla bla bla bla bla ............. !!!!!!!!!!!!

wah ... havnt been here for sssssssssooooooo llllllloooooooonnnnngggggg .... super long siol. haha. where shall i start ? heh. no need to start anywhere la . sembarang je. im typing this piece directly from my heart .. chey. pe je !

school? ... im rushing my model box for "sceneography" due wed. hell lots of paper work to be done. journal and stuff ... zzz zzz zzz and more zzz .... so looking forward to upcoming term break starts 22nd. wuhoo ~
fam? ... Dada's doing fine. ma and sis back in KL and busy like whats new. sis in 'honeymoon' mood now ... (sssyyhhh :x)
my people? havnt been seeing lotsa them for ages. this one week is fully dedicated to them! haha. esp to dearest girlfrens - you know who you are. me and kamaL? heh. great. his video "MY STORY" is now on screening for a month at this restaurant at millenia walk. its all about cosmopolitan, globalisation and ... erm, forgotten the other one. sorry. im proud of him. ;)

i gotta rush my model box now. will be back here again soon. yea soon ... heh.

-hern-

...

2005-08-03T00:06:00.000-07:00

there r so many things i wanna type in here but
wen i get to it, my thoughts jus sublime..

mom has been away in thailand for abt a week now.
she said its a business trip but i guess her meetings only
took up half of her time. most of the time she goes
sight seeing n shopping n visiting my cute lil cousins!!
ouch, i miss them.
she said she will try to be back by tmr n i hope she does.
i miss her.
yup, ayang spent a hell lot of time in jurong over the week
but still i wan my mummy. i hope she comes back with
lots of gifts.

a lil financial crisis here. u ppl dun wanna know how much
i spent on food n cab over the week.
i dine at fish n co. swensens. sakae. crystal jade. coffee club.steak house.
my goodness. now i regret it.
there r so many things i wanna buy.
new tops new pants. some skirts n accessories.
i jus broke my new foundation. from a piece to powder form.
wen it drops, my heart drops too. argh.
i stll wanna get ayang the guess watch n the crumpler bag.
ayang bought mi a new perfume!! grinning.

anyway, we went for a tour on sunday evening.
from woodlands ayang drove his mom to st. joseph church
to attend a wake. den from victoria st we drove his dad
to bedok for a badminton match. along the way back to the church,
we drop by Geylang n their popular red light district to take a look.
it was real interesting. lolx
den from victoria st to bedok, den to jurong. den to woodlands
and back to jurong. :))

i missed class today. should i smile or not?

i wanna go holiday!! i wanna go to the states!!
i wonder where mom will take us tis yr end.
shanghai maybe? daddy is there!
i miss him too.
alone at home facing the 4 sided purple wall.

darling is weird today. he actually said 'yes' to mi
going clubbing with kurui n gang.
a YES w.o questions. weird.

-vern-

It's the 28th of July

2005-07-28T15:00:00.000-07:00

Whoever's birthday today, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!
but it has nth got to do with me.
i have got a more impt person to go out with.

someone ever so awesome so amazing n so incredible.
im lying. hahaha

11th month and still counting.
i love u, azri bin m.suris

love,
-vern-

tired

2005-07-28T06:00:00.000-07:00

ma head is gonna burst.
eyes gonna pop out.
limbs gonna hang loose
organs gonna break down.

okok, a bit exaggerating but soon, it will. UNLESS
i go get some slp now.

ayang was surpose to be at work on monday morning but he drove all
the way to jurong to buy me mac breakfast at 9am. thank u darling.
sorry for refusing to open the door.
i thout u r kidding wen u said u r outside.
i had hell lots of fun in sch on tues. those ladies r mad!
crazy zaiton crazy carol!!! total madness until ms vicky
almost died i think. lolx
did my errands, bump ard in town.
met ayang n we went to Mustafa centre. din buy anything.
we jus go there walk walk makan. its 24hrs anyway. geez
but den we still need to catch the last train home.
stopping whining sheena! we go lil india together again.
wed, we dance n dance whole nite. no no clubbing. no alcohol.
we had our mini lil party at chitra's pl. hahaha. its part of our project
presentation but in the end.... lolx. i shall not continue.
gd job done anyway. cheers~!

-vern-

Awesome weekend

2005-07-25T00:00:00.000-07:00

an awesome weekend despite the fact that i have assignments
due in 2 days time! wakakaka. thank u ayang for taking
time off from his BOYS in PA.

Friday: i was early for sch! once in a bluemoon. haha
sheena n chitra din turn up for class. poor ladies. both sick.
i think sheena caught her illness from me. sorry babe.
lesson was fun. ms vicky is a lil......dull. but gosh, i prefer her den
that 'eyes on you' ms gandhi. shes a total nightmare.
anyway, carol all were so sweet to invite me and azri to go
for lunch with them. but ayang need to run some errands
so we headed back to jurong. n in the evening,
we went back to town to do some shopping and makan
and makan and shopping and movie. ok, i know fantastic 4 has
been out for long but i just watched it. it was nice! geez.
den..........indochine!

saturday: stayed home in the day to do my assignment.
nahz, i spent more time in front of the tv to watch LOST marathon. oops :x
ok, met kurui for dinner at abt 7. im late. as usual. dinner was gd :)
bump ard, sit ard, walk ard till ayang and a few frenz reached town at abt 9.30pm.
next destination: Chinablack. it was a bad idea but we had fun still.
so happy to have yauting n khai joining us. miss u lots babe!

Sunday: went to ayang's place, sayang2 the cats, tok to the mother,
do a bit of my work den out for dinner with the family. yadayadayada.
lazy to continue.

sheena found her new love. a long lost fren of 3 years. from a lil sch boy
to a charming young man now! gd for u babe! tell me more
on tues ya!

-vern-

2005-07-21T22:25:00.000-07:00

... and i miss this Gorgeous one. have you seen her anywhere ? ... Vern Dear. i want you to be part of the FUN ... pls ?

... BAYBEATS '05

2005-07-21T22:15:00.000-07:00

it was BAYBEATS that brought all of us together. its another re-union for my people. thanks to Apek for being the co-organizer. you rock la! sorry bout your hp batt thou. heh. we spent our saturday at the esplanade checkin out the annual event. it'll be naked without these people around i tell you. great place great music great people. we walked back home from boonlay mrt to our place ... had supper and stuff. my people are amazing entertainers! phew, ma was fine when i 'knockknock' the door at 3am. heh.

and yes. B-Quartet was awesome on fri night. AND YES Bai, i agree with you that faizal bani is worth to go 'gugugaga' about. hohoho~ thanks to dada and ma who accompanied me to check out Electrico on sunday. I WANT YOU~ perfect. but no kaki to berkinje pulak. haha.

... i went to catch up with sis at samar with her frens after esplanade. sheesha~ heehaa~ ... we then went to Bizan for Shaggies. RafiAli, ShahAli and FaizalAli are all talented people i should say. ;)

-hern-

Pretentious ppl

2005-07-19T01:00:00.000-07:00

i hate pretentious ppl! y cant they jus get out of my life?
i thout the first grp was gone, now comes another one.

call urself a gd fren? fuck that 2 words "gd fren"
dun even mention sisters or bestie!
think abt it, r u fit to be one?
there is an outing, u din call me n u blame mi
for not asking the prime question "with who?"
u mean im surpose to call or msg u everyday asking
"hey dear, where r u? with who? where to?"
dream on. i WILL NOT rot with u.
oh yah, n wen im out with ma other grp of frenz,
u always wan to be part of it.
fine, u r welcome but pls know ur position.
dun pretend u care wen all u do is call mi n whine abt
ur own life. i hav emotions too.
wadeva it is, i saw it now. have fun n leave me alone.

thank u ayang for consoling mi thru sms.
ayang call mi soon ayang, i haven hear ur voice all day.
leave the boys alone n back to me, baby. muackz.

thank u kurui for making mi laugh again.
our date on Sat is still on.
muackz.

-vern-

recall

2005-07-14T10:44:00.000-07:00

hey ladies! (u know who u r) remember the 3 hours "catching up" session we had few
weeks back at macafe, and we were toking abt how our guys irritate us by
asking "smart" questions that they knew we wont know?
usually those are questions related to general knowlegde and if we do
not know how to ans it, they think we r dumb.

well, boys, listen up! general knowlegde is impt but it may or may not
be useful to us ladies. so stop asking stupid questions and act like u r so
god damn smart wen we cant come up with the right ans.
and stop asking us things abt sports becos we know nuts.
i don know is it becos of pride or plain ego that u guys mux win all the time.
but seriously, think abt it.

how abt askin us questions like
how many ZARA outlets are there? or
does GUESS have any new hangbags? or
whos Britney's husband?
BINGO!

ps: ok ayang, the above msg does not refers to u.
(he has stop irritating me months b4. gd boy. muacks)

btw, ma ayang does not know that Jessica Simpson and Ashley Simpson
are sisters eventhough its pretty obvious.
and he doesnt know that Jennifer Aniston and Brad Pitt has split.

SEE, BOYS! get wad i mean?

ohya, ma mum called HOME tis afternoon and i answered the phone.
Mum: "where r u?"
Me: ...

-vern-

sick

2005-07-11T22:30:00.000-07:00

im sick. thanks to the auntie on the bus last friday. she sat
beside me for 30mins coughing non-stop. spreading all the germs to me.
i dun mean to be crude but its true.

i slpt the whole day and ayang got to call me every
few hours to make sure im fine. hes bz having meetings with
the FIs so i thout we wont be meeting for dinner. i
have got no energy to go out anyway. BUT he came and picked me at 7pm
and back to his hse to get his uniform.
den to dinner and back home. now im tired again,
ayang is probably gg to play billard with the guys.

argh, i shall go slp.

-vern-

... sunday

2005-07-11T15:50:00.000-07:00

my sunday didnt start off that nice. sis wanted me to company her to this wedding invition at pasir ris. but i didnt want to. i just wanna spend the day lepaking at home and enjoy ibu's asam pedas. but heck, i hate it the most when she starts to make noise. she can be such a pain in the ass at times. like a small kid. i get changed ... bla bla. its actually Rafi Ali's wedding. ... we got there and saw Bro Aide and wifey - the hyper mama. heh. Zulkanain Zainal was there too!! aawww~ so sweet. haha. the event was so grand man. it was held at this open space padang at pasir ris st 71? dont remember. Rafi's wifey is so pretty seh. eurasian. nway the food was good man.

got home at 6 this morning. was out with sis, june, ayie and kAmaL. kAmaL surprised me with his presence. he claimed that he went home str after religious class. for all i know he's on his way to meet me. "big bro worry la the lil sis is out clubbing...." hoho~ i can still recall vividly kAmaL saying "hey we've got class 2mrw. we're not supposed to be here tau'' hhmm ... but still we're there. hah! my eyes were too heavy this morning. i have to skip kenny's theatre production lesson today. aarrgghh~ i really have to do something. i cant be simply lepak out after school and be back the next morning. this is so not right. im a student!

-hern-

yadayadayada

2005-07-10T23:10:00.000-07:00

i shall blog the way hern wrote hers entry.

thursday
ayang's off day. he promised me my mac breakfast but he woke up late again.we had lunch instead and then we jus spend the afternoon slacking on the sofawatching own movies.

friday
sch was great. the 3D project was fun. stupid lecturer, she better not lose my assignment.she heck care abt everyone except our dear sheena. WTF!
oh wells, thats SHEENA, who wont know her?
ayang picks mi up from sch, went for lunch and den i went home while he went back to camp. met emma in the evening in town for dinner and jus to bumparound. ma acid bar plan is ruin by a grp of idiots.duno wad the hell the grp of guys wan. so wad if its a ALL GUYS thingy.cant u guys jus tell ur gfs honestly? its jus SHISHA. azri can tell mi honestly, y cant u ppl do so too?
if not becos of u guys, i would be clubbing away with hern. fucking idiots.
MANN, if u r reading this, i have got a msg for u"U FUCKING HELL KEEP UR FUCKING MOUTH SHUT AT ALL TIMES BECOSU TEND TO SAY THE WRONG THING AT THE WRONG TIME, ALL THE TIME! GO HIDE SOMEWHERE BOY, PROBABLY IN BETWEEN UR GF'S LEGS! THAT WLD BE FINE, FUCKER!"

saturday
i only slpt for 4 hrs but its mummy's day, i gt to get up. i went for facial with her at paragon, shop around for cosmetics. she paid of cos. lunch was good.mummy had never eaten at Far east plaza at all. hahaand i drag her there today. yup, all the way from paragon. met Eis after lunch. i was so tiredand totally not in the mood to shop. its the same things that i have been looking atfor the past weeks. called ayang 20 times again but he din even stir in bed.
oh well, 5pm, i went home. 6pm, im home
7pm, he called. ask to go for dinner. im slping dude!
8pm, kurui wanna go drink.
9pm, yauting wanna go club.
7 to 10pm, ayang n i were quarrelling away.
i dun care, its his fault! i din get to slp. well....

sunday
met ayang for lunch at suntec. tis time round, he wasnt late.
so sweet of him to bring me for some really good indian food.
after lunch, walk ard, den meet his family for dinner.
mak long now has got extra 6 kittens. really cute ones
they are for sales. any takers? 2 white, 2 black, 1 grey
and 1 mixture of white and brown (not for sale)
takers can bring them home nx month or so.
there are also another 3 grey kittens for sales.
really for collection anytime becos they r already 3 months old.
haha. mak long hse was real fun with 20 cats/kittens all over.
yes, madness! my sensitive nose cant take it man.

-vern-

...

2005-07-09T16:02:00.000-07:00

THURSDAY
lepak with sis at lido's macafe while waiting for kAmaL to be done with his client. we then proceed to Barnone for some good music and it was a good choice. the music there was awesome. ayie - kAmaL's good friend joined us soon after. the night was a hell of good music, good moves and good company till 3. thanks to the lockers that suck up $4 for my sch bag (i was from sch) and kAmaL's biggest bag on earth as well. ... sis was amazed to have met some 'fun people like ayie (and kAmaL). good for her. i want her to open up and aware that there are, THERE ARE people out there that can make her laugh. make her happy like anything. just by some stupid lame cock talking. ayie and kAmaL are that sort of people - old but groovy. got home at 5 ... only to shower 2 hours later after my short nap. school starts at 9am.

FRIDAY
thanks to Dada. i managed to 'top up my sleep' on my way to sch. i still sleep in class thou - heh. Marc, my french canadian lecturer for Theatre Technology and Drafting was extremely BORING. oh maybe i was just me. hhmm? sis beeped in the middle of class and asked me to meet her after sch. "party again tonight? i just msged kAmaL. same package. haha!" ... her text to me. im like what the &%!@ ... i need my sleep!! haiz ... but. the night still went on. well, just that the locker at MOMO only cost us $2. heh. MOMO's liveband section is still 'young' to me. it wasnt a kick-ass one i should say. but the other session was 'omigosh' ... really. its a place for havoc party people who just want to dance dance and dance. happenin music.

... SCHOOL
sch has been great so far. so far. wed i met my sound lecture - Jeffrey. botak, rides a vespa, doesnt believe in giving out worksheets, dont claim himself as a lecturer but just a buddy who wants to share his sound knowledge. he's the coolest and hip one so far. and he works for the ESPLANADE. wuhoo~ ... ive got two scripts to read up by next week - The House of Sleeping Beauty and Golden Child. ... so that is to say that i need enough sleep coz i might doze off in the middle of reading. :)

*pic is a candidshot taken but an idiotic classmate who spoted me.

Another entry

2005-07-06T00:02:00.000-07:00

im having a headache doing ma collages. it jus sucks.
lets not tok abt it

usual sunday dinner with azri's family and den dropped by
his aunt's place for visitation and also on request. hee
they missed me!

ayang was at ma pl yesterday. had breakfast and we did some
marketing together. erm... interesting.
grinning~!!! anyway, i left him to slp in the afternoon till he got to
get up to get ready for work. night shift and also its the last nyte of his IOC duty.
(at the moment lah)

i simply has nth else to say. sayang is off tmr. he said he will pick mi
up from school. he better do so or i'll chop him up into pieces.
i love him still.

hey hern! enjoying school ya. thats gd.
pls remember my sunflowers.
muacks

-vern-

2005-07-05T22:27:00.000-07:00

beep beep. msg from KENNY this morning - "no sound lesson this morning." and BAB! i went back to sleep. dont know whats up la. well well nothing much today ... just that i miss sch. haha ~ kAmaL's away for camp instructing for bowen sec 2 students. will only be back by thurs. ... oh yea. we were bumping around town y'day after sch .. rachelle tagged along and together we met sis. nothing much .. just spent like an hour at YaKun ... jalan2 ... and lepak at lido's macafe for like 2 hours ...? walk all the way up to dhoby. stopped here and there ... had fun with sis new gadget - new sony's vid cam she bought in KL. its so for that videographer! ... the night was so happenin. sis and rachelle were talking like forever. kAmaL and myself were like retards having fun with ourselves ... shouting ... singing ... talking cock like whats new. ... french fries from macD at the end of the day was perfect. train ride was horrible thou. haha. thanks to that cck and yew tee people.

we reviewed back the vid taken when we got home. WITH IBU ! hahaha... madness isnt it? you know when kids like us get vid cam in our hands what will happen? all the bull and cock talks ... the sickening faces ... the crazy reactions ... and ma's cool with shits like this ~ COOLNESS.

... school sweet school ~

2005-07-05T13:00:00.000-07:00

man. first day was awesome! new frens, lecturer, environment ... just simply rocks! ... nways. my class only consist of 9 students. and they are all cool people i tell you. ELSA - this sweet 19 year old lady whos made of indian dad and chinese ma was from my foundation batch of finearts. WILLIAM - this chinese young man. good example of 'mama's boy' ... Ema - whom i tot eurasian or something is a malay. and she has hell lots of working expriences with so many theatre prod locally. she's just back in sch to get the 'paper'. hhmm.. i sense good 'networking'. know what im saying ? and yea the rest of the students were from foundation performing arts. KENNY - my theatre prod. lecturer is a hell of a person man. he not only works for production locally but also internationally. being involve in so many productions at the esplanade is needless to say. wows! yes what he said is true - "this is the truth, in this line, u must get to know lots of ppl. bcoz normally its about who you know and not what you know. networking is very important" ... very true. kenny will get for us tixs or passes to full dress rehearsals of productions in spore - theatre, dance etc. coolstuff. he wants us to meet as many ppl as possible and of coz to pick up expriences from the 'real world' ... im so looking forward to each and every bit of my 'new thing' ...

met mr kAmaLgafor during lunch. i'll go wild whenever i see him - all the time. and messing up my hair and just be a tingtong lady in the middle of the canteen is nothing new from Hern ;)

2005-07-03T19:30:00.000-07:00

... ~

i had so much fun going back "HOME" on fri for Juying's Homecoming Dinner cum 10th Anniversary. having to meet some old chaps and teachers was so cool. its an honour to be invited to do the closing. teachers requested me to sing "HOME" ... as they want that, you know 'homecoming feeling'. JYians love that song so much. they sang along with me. wuhoo~ just a lil updates here and there - juying now has a new 'daddy' .. new principal, Mr Abdul Harris. he himself performed a number on that night - "Just The Way You Are". i met Mr Harris way back since i was 14. sis did this album for PERKAMUS or something and malay teachers contributed their composition and all for that album - Kakilangit, Senandung Puisi its called. so happened that he was the one who composed the song sis sang, "Bicara Hati". and now that i met him, he's askin me to sing his songs he composed long ago. haha. ... well bottomline, im just happy that the teachers were enjoyed my performance on that night. and yea, the beautiful jyians as well. thank you for all those compliments! flattering! hoho.

thanks to kAmaL for being my videographer and photographer on that day. he wants to do a documentary on me! haha. like a 15mins of fame kinda thing. compile my old shoots, interview my frens family or maybe shoot my everyday life etc. edit it and stuff. just for the fun of it! (or perhaps send it in for the 'project pilot' on artscentral? heh.) how cool is that? no no. its more like - How cool is my boyfriend? he and his forte. hey ... im proud of him. ok, dont want to sound so ya-ya. thanks for just being there kAmaL. ;)

i want to watch "ALot Like Love" so badly but the 'sengkek' cinema at cck lot1 doesnt have it. so, kAmaL got to watch his "War of the Worlds" ... hhmm. no bad. but its not my kind of movie. heh. but nevertheless i got myself fulfilled - pizza hut for dinner! wuhoo~ thanks alot.

back to school 2mrw. yey yey! ive yet to get hold of timetable thou. but i was told by my lecturer - kenny before that my classes will be in the morning. and afternna will all be occupied
for production. coolness . kAmaL's moving on to his third year. my block which is the performing arts block is just behind his media arts block. haha. bla bla bla ...

ma and sis will be back home by tonight. some surprises from sis ? ... hhmm ...

-hern-

Mummy's day

2005-07-02T20:40:00.000-07:00

yup, saturday is always mummy's day.
meaning i got to be home with her.
it includes going to the market place,
having breakfast with godma and her.
shopping (i love it) and watching boring
sat stay home movie with her.
its ok. got used to it.
sunday is another mummy's day too - azri's mummy.
:)

friday? sch was fun. making prints is fun and not that
difficult afterall. met sayang in the evening for dinner.
billy bombers sucks. sucks sucks.
nobody seems to be in town. ayang's buddy r staying home
cos they r going for the liberation party tonyte.
anyway, acid bar and the drinks were perfect last nyte.

not to mention that juying's homecoming dinner is last nyte
and i din go. yah, best fren is performing but
ma boyfriend din wan to attend with me.
its ok thou. spent 5 yrs in that school but the frenz there r not worth my time.
most disappeared into thin air after Os, some for gd. :)
those who stayed, i love em to bits.
so, in the end, its onli the building that left me some gd memories.

well well well...

-vern-

Asshole brother

2005-06-30T18:00:00.000-07:00

IAN LOH JUN HAO is such an asshole
he acts like a gd boy outside, but wen back home,
hes the worst irritating bastard ever. he never admits his own mistakes.
he will never know how to clean his own shit up.
thats y he NV shits outside!

i called home to ask him what is his a/c no. so that i can transfer his allowance
for him. but he screamed into the phone saying " i dunno la. ask mummy"
and i replied "its in the drawer in blah blah blah"
he said "dunno lah!" tooot~~ went the phone.
fine, i called mummy and she din pick up. thats monday evening.
came home, mummy says she will transfer for him the next day.
today, he came home yelling saying y i haven transfer the money.
i repeated the conversation we had on the fone
and he said "its ur fault for nt bringing the book with u"
and he continues "its my a/c. y shld i remember my own no.?"
WOW. he means im surpose to remember HIS a/c no.?
what a wonderful brother he is.

hey, if u r reading this,
1. dun ask mi to cook maggie for u
2. dun ask mi for money if u dun have any
3. dun ask mi to shop for u (i bought him a ralph lauren tee and he wear to slp!)
4. dun ask mi to buy dinner for u
5. dun ask mi for lappy
6. dun ask mi to on the router for u at 3am
7. FUCK OFF

effect from now

-vern-

happy. shalalalala

2005-06-29T23:15:00.000-07:00

yeah yeah, im 0nli 19. oops, not yet. 3 more months b4 i turn 19. lol
enjoy life first. future? thout abt it and planned. taken the first step and am still
walking str. ahead. so, dun worry!! no need to be so detailed.
still young, can afford to twist n turn here n there. hahaha

shit lah. assignments sucks. ma art sucks. how am i suppose to submit
5 paintings, 5 printings n 5 collages? madness.

anyway, i had fun todae. yesterday's war was never mentioned.
as usual, ayang's CDI sucks to the max. but its ok.
we still had fun. :)
thank u sayang for the straw painting, the pillow fight, the dance, the waffle and the dinner.

love,

vern

2005-06-29T13:00:00.000-07:00

... smiles.

went back to my old "home" y'day. man, i miss juying. met the coolest pakcik ever - Encik Sies. the hunk - Mr Singh. bla bla ... bumped onto most teachers and they were askin almost the same question - "its very hard to get you. have you been in town all along?" ... haha. they tot ive migrated to KL and continue my studies there - my initial plan thou. hhmm .. well. will be heading back to sch again today for the Home Coming full dress rehearsal at 6pm. its actually a celebration for juying's 10th anniversary. and the sch has invited me perform a number. wuhoo~ im so looking forward to it.

met veron and bai for lunch at banquet right after. somehow i felt like its sec sch all again. i remembered how we all used to meet up after sch at jp for dinner or whatsoever. hah. went to the library coz the two ladies got to check out on some books ... wow. seeing them with files and papers all over makes me feel so useless. haha. i miss school. cant wait to carry my bag with a lil more weight from mon onwards. but wait, do i need files and papers for my sch? heh. we spent like more than three hours talking bout stuff at macafe. the past. th epresent. the future. haha. yea! we're only freakin 19!! we ought to be happy enjoy life and having a carefree attitude! wahaha. you know what i mean girls. and veron pls stop the "yes we're 19. but kamal is 25.." idiot you. hahah.

happy 10th month to dearest veron and the FI - mr Azri. ;)

-hern-

2005-06-26T01:45:00.000-07:00

... wow!

for the first time - im not hungry! wahaha. only makan once today. lontong only. and i can actually tahan for the whole day?! no chocs. no ice cream. no cookies. im still alive!! lolx. hhmm. maybe if i timbang myself 2mrw ringan ckit kot? haha. peje Hern! ... im missing my Ya Kun. ;(

-hern-

Sat afternoon

2005-06-25T15:23:00.000-07:00

the weather is terrible. the moment i step out of my aircon room,
i feel as if im melting away.
i wonder how my baby boy and sheena darling tahan.
they are both at the padang now.
may god bless them with a peaceful heart to withstand the heat.
oh, whateva.

its a boring afternoon. no sayang. no frenz. no mummy.
friday was beautiful like wad hern mention.
town was extremely crowded. wisma was worse becos of taufik batisah.
now i know he actually has limited number of fans. poor kids whom mums are crazy over him.
ps, im nt being racist.

-vern-

Beautifulicious ;)

2005-06-25T01:40:00.000-07:00

... beautiful day it was yesterday.

beautiful kAmaL to start off the day - beautiful lunch at beautiful jp and ever so beautiful banquet. met beautiful bai at the beautiful wisma. beautiful sheena and beautiful fendi as well. to check out the most beautiful local STAR - Taufik! on the beautiful little stage. and i spotted the beautiful watch on him. the watch sis gave him (as a bday present) when they went out few days after his bday. beautiful secret that was. (ssyyhh..) beautiful veron and beautiful azri joined us soon after. thanks for the beautiful gift from beautiful bangkok for me and kAmaL. sketch books are designers' and artists' bestfrens! beautiful idea. thanks to beautiful Dada who gave me xtra beautiful 10bugs when i suddenly realised that ive used up all of today's allowance. good to have your Dada working near your beautiful lepaking place. heh.

i better stop here honey.

have a beautiful night people.

Vern's Home sweet home

2005-06-24T13:08:00.000-07:00

my turn to return home.
touched down at 4pm yesterday and darling was there at changi airport to pick me.
love him miss him!
hes now beside me, pretend to slp but actually hes making some silly faces out of boredom.

dun ask me hows my trip. i shop and shop n shop. its jus shopping and more shopping everyday.
spend all my money and buy lots of things but useless and unpractical stuff. -_-
things that i wanted to buy initially, all i din buy.
things are cheap but not as nice as those we have here in singapore.
darling and brother got most of the presents i bought.
argh~! wadeva. i shall make a trip there again at the end of the year.
tis time round, sheena and ayang betta go with me!

well well, update later. i miss school.
n now theres one big baby beside playing with my alarm clock.
got to get back to him!

-vern-

HOME Sweet HOME ....

2005-06-20T23:40:00.000-07:00

... BLAH BLAH BLAH.

wuhoo~ soooo good to be back home. two weeks of no internet is still fine for me. still can tahan. been busy anyways. sis was tide down with shootings everyday. but nevertheless we managed to take a day off to drive up to Genting and do some shopping as well. man, DiGi has cost me alot during my stay there. i have to keep reloading my card's credit in order to stay in touch with people. and having to make a phone call back home for at least twice a day is such a killer. heh. well, mummy wants me to be there. so she anwers for all that. ;) but bottomline. i enjoyed the stay. a hectic one but i somehow i got to learn and discover new stuff. oh ya, re-permed my hair! heh. and its super curlywurly now. kAmaL will definitely love it i tell you. speaking of which - i miss him. alot. haha.

checked in to Ritz on fri noon. that place is super heavenly super powerly WONDERFUL - whatever that means. sis and i were like mad young ladies when we discover we got the view of our fav highway - ECP from our room. its on the 22nd floor and the view of our beautiful city is needless to say, Honey. ma wants to rest at home so she asked me to accompany sis for the fri's function. it was great to meet up with some frens i hvnt me for quite sometime. they cant recognise me thou. they said i look diff .... haha. so is diff good or bad? hhmm.. good so far. ;)

saturday night - party time! haha. ya rite. well. just to IMSOMNIA (is tt how u spell it?) at Chijmes. sis entertained the crowd with two numbers - I will survive and Dont Speak. wow. happening place there. with happening angmos and local chinese. i was introduced to sis's bunch of frens - Bro Aide and wife Sis Ezreen as well as her elder sis - Sis Niza. I didnt expect Bro Aide to be that down-to-earth. well, i guess given that position of his - captain of the national team to some cocky jerks, they'll definitely have that... you know.. fuckin stuck up attitude - if you know what i mean. but not for him. hhmm. Sis Ezreen is one fucky happening mama! she's damn hyper and full of jokes. great personality. ... drove back home to grab my passport. thanks ya! haha. was a hassle but those people were kind enough. i like~ well. met few other football people over at singgah selalu. makan ... bla bla. got back home at bout six.

...

met the beautiful kAmaLgafor today. he just did a leadership camp at jalan bahtera. xtra dark now. haha. but still, as sweet looking as ever. ;) thanks for the lovely gift SUNSHiNE.

ive got lots to catch up on. sleep especially. and YES! i pass!! wuhoo~ got to head back to sch on 1st July to collect timetable. and sch resumes on the 4th. so looking forward to it!!

-hern-

misses

2005-06-15T01:29:00.000-07:00

missing u my dear

gonna miss u even more when i leave tmr

be good in the meantime ya

love

Tues afternoon.

2005-06-14T13:25:00.000-07:00

im rushing ma assignment like crazy. totally forgotten about it
jus becos im having ma holidays now. date due is on the 22nd but i will only back b on the 23rd.
therefore, im rushing to complete it now. im already halfway there. shall close that window, blog, and then get ready to go out. heez

going to aunt jenni's pl first. i think she has got some expensive jewellery for me again.
hopefully! ma dad used to dote on her when shes young. spolit her with expensive jewelleries.
now that she got no daughters, hahahahha! everything back to me!
i simply love being a girl!

meeting kurui for makan later in town. hopefully ayang finish work early todae. so he can join us too. theres a new intake of boys in PA today. thats y ayang busy. i wonder how those boys will behave infront of those sirs. hahaha. giv ma sayang a fuck up face, they will see his even more fuck up face too!
see! girls, dun u ppl love beng a girl too?!

oh well, i better get ready.

-vern-

family gathering.

2005-06-13T01:10:00.000-07:00

Family gathering has never been this fun.
we gathered at Mandai Crematorium and Columbarium at 2pm.
dun worry, no bad news. ma grandma bought a new condo for ma late grandpa.
so we are all there for the moving house ceremony. haha
from the old block to the new block.
know something? its the same block and same unit as late president Dr Wee Kim Wee.
but he's at the 1st floor, grandpa at the 2nd floor.
went for family dinner at 4pm. yah, wad a dinner at 4pm ya?!
well, all ma uncles are doing well. big cars big houses. not bad not bad.
Loh family is a big and wealthy family afterall. lolx :x

reached home, bathed. meet sayang. drove to serangoon to meet abg J and his gf.
den to arab street to smoke shisha. now im home at 1am. :)

daddy is flying off tmr morning at 10am. im gonna miss him. i will have more freedom but then again, mummy will be alone and i wanna accompany her. argh..

i jus packed ma luggage for bangkok. 4 tops, 1 skirt, 1 pants and few sets of lingeries. heez, dahz!
im gonna come back with a few more luggages. hopefully.
dun u ppl dare give me any shopping lists!

gdnyte
-vern-

silly smiles.

2005-06-10T22:24:00.000-07:00

heeekekekeke.
i cant giggling to myself. i jus a saw a pic of adam's dog and his gf's dog and
remembered what adam said. the gf's mother called him to help bath the dog becos the gf went out of town. hahaha

well, i had 2 days of eating and cooking and eating and cooking.
yesterday ma thai guest cooked 4 dishes of yummy thai food. and desert too.
yummilicious.
today,i jus sit home and enjoying eating 4 different kinds of dumpling.
ma nanny made it. she gd at it u know. ;)
n sheena's mum did a gd job too. hers was yummy too.
ma dad ate one and asked for somemore. no more lah daddy, sheena only gave me one!

daddy is flying off to shanghai again. monday morning u all will see me at the airport sending him off. he promised me a round ticket to shanghai in august! muackx
wed, ma turn to fly to thailand. so excited.

ohyah, todae is the 10th. xinglong enlistment date. gd luck brother! have fun yah.
brother love! haha

i wish im at changi chalet now. mummy agreed to let me out and dad was fine that i spend the nyte out. BUT the guy who wanna bring me there is slping now.
i called him 20times. but he din wake up. he din pick up. those who dunno him will thout something had happened. but as a gf of his, 20 times is normal.
so now u ppl know who am i refering to ?
no point fuming. no pt blaming him for ruining my party nyte. no point calling another 2o times (he wont pick up)

-vern-

2005-06-09T01:51:00.000-07:00

... KL's calling me! good bye people.

-hern-

Town again.

2005-06-08T16:25:00.000-07:00

Happy brithday Abg J!

wow.. i hav been wishing ppl happi brithday for the past few days.
ma turn soon! haha.

where r all my frenz? busy with sch. busy with boyfriends. busy with girlfriends.
argh. whateva shit.

right, i owe kurui a dinner.
i owe pearly a dinner too.

ok, sch was fine ytd. todae last day but i din turn up. im down wit mummy's flu
and yawn~~~ im jus lazy n tired. thout no sch no need to go town but
den im meetin abg J for makan later. where? town.
ok, im so excited. cant wait to ride his new bluey VESPA!!

was in town ytd after sch with ma aunt n her thai fren.
we had hell lotsa fun. cant imagine ma aunt having fun with me ya?
hahaha. not those old auntie with kids to run after lah!
she's only in her early 20s.
makan at crystal jade blah3.

blur sayang, forgot his helmet. how can someone forgot his helmet when he got to go for
bike practical? haizyo.
n poor him. got to work till like 10pm last nyte?
its' ok dear, im seeing u later!!

last week was terrible but we fine now.
i adore azri. i really do.

2005-06-07T02:55:00.000-07:00

... smiles.

Monster in Law was awesome. JLo is forever hot. thanks kAmaL. (the gummy as well)
and again, Secrets Recipe's brownies is so sedap la. lagi with ice cream.. *muah*

im so addicted to brownies now. thanks to you kAmaL ... you chocolate freak!

and yea, MAGADASCAR = two thumbs up! ;)

VERON!! i so wanna go Thai with you ......!!!

* Happy Birthday Kak June!

-hern-

smile.

2005-06-06T23:00:00.000-07:00

Im blissfully in love with azri.

a great day. im happy.

vern

HIS DAY

2005-06-05T02:35:00.000-07:00

... the 25 year old kid.

we had a beautiful evening on friday. i told him that im leaving for KL on friday the day before. thurs that is. all made up. heh.
told him on fri morning that my bus to KL will be leaving at 430pm. i even went like "wish i could be here to spend your day..." in the sms. bull. my mind was so occupied in the afternoon that ive forgotten to send him my 'last msg' to inform him that "im leaving". he called at 530. shock to death i was! came up with an xcuse - bus delay. taking the 1130 one instead. even more bull. aiyah, long story la .... im always so long winded. heh. bla bla ... had dinner at suntec's pizza. good food and we were both hungry but funny, didnt eat much like we usually do. were just too elated. i surprised him with a gift. will talk bout that later. kept looking at my watch .. the 'play' is still on, honey! ;) well. xpected, he were all jumpy and and went even more "tingtong" when i told him the truth bout me and the 'bull' plans. heh. poor kid.

well well. a touch bout the gift i made him. its a book. with 'pure' hardwork for a month, the book is now born! wuhoo~ the book only consist of 13 pages. its actually a 'photo diary'. we've got lots of pics right from day 1. from frens to this state. heh. page 1 was a pic on our first date .. the one at Arts House ... page 2 - the following date at Parkview Sq .. page 3 - number three represents him and so it was his solo pic ... the updated ones like the sentosa were also included. page 13 - hehe. needless to say - my solo pic. as for the back of the book - our close up pic and the birthday msg. i like the cover best coz ive actually placed a piece of glass on top of the cover pic, in the middle of the cover. to give it a more professional look. frame-like kinda touch la. hee~ beige, white and black were the colours i focused on for the whole book. thus with that the pics will be very outstanding - know what im sayin? heh. hhmm hhmm .. anyone need help for "something from the heart" ....?

man. i myself cant believe it that i actually did that!! i did that. never have i went this far honestly. the effort and time - its all worth it. all from the heart.

how do you think he reacted after all those surprises? heh. yea, uve guessed it right.

p/s : credits to those people behind the scenes. you know who you are. muacks!

-hern-

Whatever.

2005-06-05T00:50:00.000-07:00

i can see happiness in their eyes. im so jealous.
where is mine?

yes, im jus a pretty lil woman w/o brains.
one you can put on display infront of ur frenz.

i need a break. a getaway. yes, i've got one and am leaving soon.
thanks mum for the trip.
i'll be fine. its not the first time
im boarding a plane alone.

jus leave me alone n dun contact me.
you'll be fine w/o me.
i'll be fine w/o u.

-vern-

Happy Birthday Mama

2005-06-04T03:10:00.000-07:00

Its mummy's birthday today - 4th June. :)
I love u mummy.
she knows i love her but i hope she dun read ma blog. -_-

i cant slp still. its already 3am. ayang mus be slping soundly now
he has been busy with work, parents, work, cats.
he did call but we din talk much. he called jus to say gd nyte.
wateva lah.. ma onli 2 weeks holiday of the whole year course
is coming anyway. i cant wait to getaway!

i think im gg to the zoo tis weekend again. cos theres a thai
guest in ma house rite now. shes a gd fren of the family.
i like her.
since i have a zoo craze n i have been there so many times.
i shall offer to be the tour guide of the day. :)
darling is not free anyway. NDP NDP NDP

argh. ma gum pain!!

-vern-

2005-06-04T02:10:00.000-07:00

3rd June' 05

... Happy 25th Birthday kAmaL abdul gafor.

Thailand.

2005-06-04T00:55:00.000-07:00

yes yes, im gg to bangkok on the 15th. going for 8 days.
wow.. i make sure i shop till i drop. and hopefully mummy gives me
more cash. hee..
700bucks, 6 luggages?
LOL

i finished ma assigment on time of cos. but i woke up late for sch today. AGAIN.

i miss ma dear..

ohyah, happy birthday, kamal!

-vern-

Toothache

2005-05-31T23:40:00.000-07:00

Ma toothache is killing me. becos of that, i wasted a pair of movie tickets
and i missed out half a day of lesson. argh~!!
i nv knew toothache can be tis terrible. now ma right cheek is a lil rounder than
the other. 6 painkillers a day. isnt that enuff? :(

darling is off today. he picked me up at 11am. went for makan den
to police academy to hand in some documents. its a scary place to me.
in a way la. can u imagine, sitting in the car alone like a doll on display
with men being the only viewers? lol
ok lah, i know some of the guys and i get to see sayang's squad.
sayang bought a pair of tickets to monster-in-law but ma toothache is so
unbearable that i dun hav the mood to watch. n he force me to go
dental. stupid dental mus wait for at least 2 hrs. i end up gg woodlands to slp.

sorry kurui! u din call mi so i thout its cancelled. n remember u told mi abt the
interview? i seriously thout u r gg today. will make it up but i dunno wen.
gosh, i keep doin that to u. no more nx time, pls call.

argh.. ma essay. 1500 words to go!!!

-vern-

2005-05-31T14:00:00.000-07:00

....

spent my whole monday with him - at his studio!! argh~ he and his new project. i did nothing but just sit there signing in and out of friendster and checking mails. heh. k im not complaining. we were about to leave then came this dance lecturer who needed help on some vcd whatever la. i ended up waiting for another fourty minutes for him to be done with his 'personal tutorial' to the lecturer. even more argh~~~ im not mad. just that i cant wait too long. but e'thing went fine thou. ;)

Dear V and Azri picked us up at borders. drove all the way to changi just to have their nasi lemak and our teatarik. didnt get to see the bapoks. heh. dropped by east coast's macD for V's macflurry and lepak awhile at west coast for Azri's tea chino.. or whatever you call it la. forgotten alr. And to take pictures at a hawker ctr is not a bad idea at all. hell, the pics taken in the car was the best! haha. crazy stuff by a crazy bunch. Azri thanks for the ride home!

-hern-

Sunday Morning.

2005-05-29T23:03:00.000-07:00

gd morning everyone.
yah. i got used to waking up early already.
is it gd or bad?

anyway, i met sayang last nyte. met a couple of frenz as well
but we din stay long in town.
everyone was late. i got impaitent.
i got fed up with waiting n waiting.
thanks dear for the gift. i appreciated it but
i feel that it wasnt practical. n that ting cost a bomb.
wadeva it is i love it still. y? cos its from YOU.
nx time maybe u can buy me a pair of shoes cos u know i got shoes fetish.
or maybe a pair of GUESS jeans? i wont say no to levis as well
or maybe a fossil watch?
or maybe come clinique cosmetics?
or maybe borders book voucher?
how abt the triumph t-shirt bra?
the price is abt there anyway. lolx

aiyahyahyah.. thank u sweetheart. last nyte was a total madness.
something muz be wrong with mi recently. Blame it on PMS.

im still angry with that old fucker in PA.
i hate him to the core. dun he understand english
"DO NOT MESS WITH ME"
what kind of islam n instructor will fuck their own trainee?
as in have sexual intercourse with a female trainee.
still dare to scold ma sayang jus becos he said "fuck"
thout of him makes me wan to puke.
i'll make sure he wont live pass 2006.

well, ma "monster-in-laws" are leaving thailand later on.
have fun ya! pls buy lots of accessories for me. hehehe
they dote on me. thank god.

-vern-

2005-05-29T01:35:00.000-07:00

...

met Rachelle - my 'business' partner y'day. heh. nah .. up for some small personal biz with her. Secret Recipe's brownies's a killer man!! and lepak-ing at jurong east area is not a bad idea at all lo. you guys should check out the lib. its super nice .. changed alot. havnt been there for ages ... Rachelle is one lucky lady i tell you. she's happily flying off to Surabaya and bali... BALI!!! gosh~ and hell you wouldnt wanna know - its all paid for. saw her flight tix and its freakin - $372? around there la. to and fro. her good fren is paying for all that! she only have to bring herself and some cash to spend there. how lucky can a person be ?? haha. girl, two weeks is enough for you to bring home good stuff for me ha! no excuse. heh. i wanna go BALI!! ...... ibu!!!!

-hern-

9th

2005-05-28T16:01:00.000-07:00

Happy 9th Month anniversary honey

well, im sorry abt last nyte. jus forget abt those fuckers in camp.
they r jus jealous n pretentious ppl who serve no purpose to e nation.
cant stand that kind of guys. n they call themselves gentlemen? fuck.
2 headed snakes who cant accept the fact that they are not as capable as you, honey.
they dun deserve a friend like u.
pls ask them to fuck off
yah, nth is fair in tis world. wen u do well, ppl got jealous
and they go all out to make things difficult for you.
wen u eventually fail, they pretend to be sorry.
whaeva shit.
dear, u r not going to fail.
pleasing those idiots is like pleasing the devils.

ok, i hope i can see sayang tonyte after his NDP training.
im now entertaining ma lil cousin who jus cant seems to fall aslp.
ma assignments are here again n the due date is tis coming friday.
i'll get it done no matter what..

-vern-

Breathe again.

2005-05-27T22:35:00.000-07:00

Have you wondered how it feels when it's all over
Wondered how it feels when you just have to start a new
Never knowing where you're going
When you face a brand new day
It used to be that way
Now I just close my eyes and say

*I just want to breathe again
Learn to face the joy and pain
Discover how to laugh a little, cry a little
Live a little more
I just wanna face today
Forget about the war of yesterday
Maybe if I hope a little
Try a little more, I'll breathe again

Starting out again is never easy
Disappointments come and go but life still moves on
With a bit of luck, It's a brand new start
That might just work my way, No need to walk away
Don't want to live on life replay

Things will work out fine
If you can find the courage to look past the night
To see the break of dawn

its jus 2 days and u ppl complain so much
dat your partners got no time for u?
ha, i haven seen mine in a week and still counting..
thank god i have ma parents.
n of cos sheena who watched movie with me today.
thanks dearie.

not forgetting that tmr is the 28th.

-vern-

LOVE

2005-05-26T23:57:00.000-07:00

... Dearest Ibu and Ayah's 23rd Anniversary today! Love those two Babies of Hern. semoge berkekalan hingge ke akhir hayat. insya allah.

* SUNSHiNE *

2005-05-26T23:53:00.000-07:00

... sunny sun SUNSHiNE. heh.

k whatever that means. didnt plan to visit sentosa today. but somehow we did. his off day today. initial plan was just to catch a movie - Monster in Law is out people! but nah. next week would be a better option. nways, had lunch at harbour front. aspernorm - one glass of teatarik can last us for one and a half hour of cock talking. another glass is another two hours. yea, thats what lepakin is for us. heh. sentosa .. havnt been there for quite awhile thou. siloso beach looks better now ... pahlawan not much diff just that the slide whatever they call it is now gone ... maybe too much of 'cartoon' trying to be funny and turn it upside down ALL THE TIME. watch out 'cartoon' people! ;) some spots are under renovation ... no monorail da. hah. we took whatever buses that came along. stopped anywhere we feel like to. guess there's nothing much if you ride on the blue line ... hhmm? he was all excited to find his beloved "New Zealand Natural" there at siloso! haha. its an ice cream stall btw. had ice cream there for another hour or so? little boy loves ice cream :) pics takin is a must. needless to say. just let the prof handle it. heh.

teatarik-craps-busrides-theSun-icecream-cocktoks-laughter-pics-smiles-dinner-chocs-train

............. all about him.

-hern-

I'm Back.

2005-05-26T10:30:00.000-07:00

yup, im back from my short trip to malacca with sayang n his parents.
it was great. food, shopping, heritage tour - everything.
i think i dun hav to go into details of what we did.
its gonna b long story. haha
jus know that i had fun. hmm..

seems like im nt the onli one missing.
everyone is missing. those who said will call
me out, din call at all. still busy or wadeva shit.
those that blame mi for nt calling,
is busy wheneva i call, so fuck off.
busy with wad, i got no idea!
got prob onli den will come to mi.
those that have been calling mi, i turn them down
again n again. IM SORRY DUDES!
not onli ma parents give mi curfews k,
ma sayang gives too. geez!
argh, nw that u guys have started sch, i feel bad n sad. :(
no one to play with mi already.
no more shopping, no more mac breakfast
no more bbq, no more drinking session,
no more swensenz
and lesser msn!!

aiyah,thats the prob u see. to be in a totally diff
classroom setting as my frenz
they hav the same age grp of frenz
i have a range of like 18 to 50??
hahaha. nvm.

sayang is jus gonna drive mi crazy.
i think we really have got
money management prob.
ok, thats nt the point im tryin to say.
i wanna say that he's so busy that he got no time
for mi. no time for anything!
wad NDP n PDP.
left with sunday. n guess wad he does on sundae?
slp! argh~!!!!

-vern-

Back to ...

2005-05-24T18:10:00.000-07:00

... ;)

the whole of yesterday with him was .. awesome. it was another lepak-ing session - like always. simple lunch downtown, after-food chocs/ice cream/cookies, walked around aimlessly. with all the same old stuff in town, like 'what's new?' , we decided to lepak at the exact spot (Spore River. near Arts House) we sat on our very first 'date'. heh. k not date, just the first time he asked me out to The Arts House - 5th Feb. now that ive uploaded the pics we took yesterday, i compared it to the previous ones and i realised that there are a couple of pics which are kinda the same - same angles, same poses, same xpressions. heh. just that now, my hair's longer and much 'bigger', he in a better complexion and poses are much much ehem, better i should say. ;) Oh ya, not forgetting our short visit to Esplanade. just that it wasnt Mocca who performed lastnite. heh.
wasnt home late yesterday thou. planned to check out his frens from "Dancing Nancies" perform at BarNone ... but nah.

I love IBU and AYAH.

-hern-

SEE!

2005-05-21T01:50:00.000-07:00

...

see! HERN'S a pig. heh. i feel so hopeless useless whatever-less la. rotting like anything at home. this is my daily routine :
1. wakes up not later then 1pm.
2. off to shower.
3. ibu makes milo for me. lepak like 15mins in living rm.
4. back to room. surf net.
5. get changed.
6. out with ma. dinner or whatever not.
7. home by 11pm.
8. shower.
9. surf again.

see! i only need like 15mins of TV! i dont watch much of tvs la. i can live without it. i know nuts bout whatever that's on tv. i dont keep up with the dramas or whatever. i may be watching it this week but not the next. heh. the fiona xia's makan show and "Cinta Internet" seems interesting thou. but heck, i only watch the first ep and thats it. see! i dont even make an effort to remind myself to catch the next. see! how lazy and ignorant hern is! ... gosh~ this is bad.

anyone has got good lobang for work? haha. i need one now. see! hern's a good girl now!

see! see! see! .......... hern's crapping again.

why? no SUNSHiNE.

see! ........ i told you. this is bad.

... nways, sweetheart V is outta town. to go on a holiday with dearest bf is always a great thing to do. plus his family around - its more than anything else. seems that its looking good on azri's side. hopefully the same too for V one fine day. blessings are important. have fun with your in-laws Chicka!

... and what the hell is happenin to my freakin MSN connection!! retry retry retry tak abis2 from just now! phuck.

dalah off to bed now. feel like sleeping with ibu and dada today.. yea. whats new? ssssyyhhh...

* eh! dada's fav song on air - "Ready For Love" by Bad Company. heh. old school~

-hern-

$50K

2005-05-19T16:40:00.000-07:00

whoeva that is gonna read this pls dun "kill" me
LOL

did i mentioned that 2 tues ago, i had a dream?
i dreamt of a number. "4489" which is sayang's hp no.
i totally forgotten abt it until last sat ma daddy
checked 4D. i asked daddy to check the 2 weds ago 4D.
n there! its sayang's no.
first prize n starters! if i were to buy n roll it,
$50K will be mine now.
*faint*
can u imagine the things u can buy n
the places u can go with 50K?!
nvm. wads nt mine will nv be mine.
i will get over that money.
i shall go slp n hopefully i will dream of
another number. haha

God is always fair n He always provide.
Amen.

... :(

2005-05-19T01:10:00.000-07:00

... good morning.

:( four days without the SUNSHiNE ... luckily ive got my msia line to let him use during his camp 2mrw till sun. at least, AT LEAST. will miss him. sobs ....

-hern-

Childish me

2005-05-18T23:20:00.000-07:00

i dunno wad to say actually.
jus woke up not long ago from ma afternoon nap.
5 hours, its no longer a nap. hahaha
but im feeling damn good.

haven been slping well the past 2 nights. 3 hours per nyte and den whole
day of sch work to rush. it was terrible.
ma family n poor sayang all kena from mi.
i threw tantrums and whine hell lot.
making sayang cant slp last nyte too.
sorry dear.

sayang stayed in camp last nyte.
stupid in-charge din give him a bed n locker.
wad kind of welfare is there?
that mother-fucker asshole FIRDAUS.
betta dun let mi sue him.
if syg's mum found out abt that, that fucker will be dead!
she confirm will sue!
betta dun mess with us. dun say i nv warn.
i did. in a way or another
no bed no locker for the past one month?
n sayang got to go bed-hopping.
that explains y no matter how tired he is,
he wants to go home.

the thout of that makes mi wan to scream.
wadeva. forget it.
sayang shld know wad to do.

not to mention that i wore ma red GUESS spec to
sch today. n sheena is havin fun with it. haha
n ohyah! sayang picked me up from sch today.
its the 3rd time since i started sch 5 months ago.
muacks!!! had sushi for lunch n shhhh....

sheena n i watched "the amityville horror" yesterday
n i became so interested in that story. watched it ppl!
onli for those who got no heart attacks.

ok, i cant wait for ma malacca trip tis weekend.
whoohoo..

-vern-

ArtSY fuRtsY

2005-05-17T14:10:00.000-07:00

... La Salle SIA - College of the Arts.

i'd strongly suggest you people to visit my old and humble school today till the 22nd. visit our Graduation Exhibition - Fine Arts and Media Arts. i myself was amazed by the works of my own 'people'. students like you and me.. well, just that they are graduates. i spent most of my time at the Media Arts exhibit - video. which is located at the sch's auditorium. gosh~ if you happen to be there, go check out this short film by three young malay dudes called 'WAYANG'. i personally think that its an interesting one.. something very real.. something very true.. something that everyone would want to see.. especially us - the MelayuS coz that was what they featured bacially. all about how the malays today in spore talk, walk etc ... a touch on anak metro, hanyut bla bla. COOL STUFF~

we then visited (oh, i invited bai over) the best videographer, the best director of photography, the artistic video editor of La Salle SIA - kAmaL abdul gafor. wuhoo~ haha. k i sounded so 'ya-ya'. so anyways, yea we dropped by his studio to check out on some of his works. well, what can i say? time is all he needs to show it to 'the world', when he graduate next year that is. im so proud of you, SUNSHiNE! ;)

thanks to sofian for picking all of us up from school. heh. save the transport fare and time. ;)

... Dearest Veron is mad at me now. sorry sayang was busy yesterday when u called me at night. didnt i text you and explained? look, i'd appreciated it if you could just get back to me... soon? Love you Honey.

-hern-

Im bored

2005-05-16T14:00:00.000-07:00

Argh! for the first time, im sitting at home doing NOTHING!
dumbass Hern left me at home. erk!!!

i took ma own sweet time to bath and blow my hair.
an hour plus passed and it's onli 2pm?!

now i become a girl with money but no life.
who says money makes the world goes round?!
liars!

LOL
im crazy.

going to chiltern house with sheena later.
another 3 hrs to go.

-vern-

WeekEnd

2005-05-15T14:35:00.000-07:00

... good sunday.

went JB for dinner yesterday. i miss all these typical weekend outings with fam somehow. god knows how much...

today, another typical sunday. just that ma's going back to KL tonight. sobs.

next weekend? hah. im going over to KL. wuhoo~
- SUNSHiNE wont be around in town. Camp Instructing in Kluang, JB.
- Veron and Azri to Malacca.

hhhmm .... bai kena left all alone here. sorry babe ...

im off for some makan now ... bye.

-hern-

im pissed

2005-05-15T00:20:00.000-07:00

Im pissed! y cant parents be more understanding?
wads the pt of keeping me home whole day?
i do nth at home also.
i have plans n i cant carried it out, ma gosh, the feeling sucks can!
i jus feel like dying.
yes, las nyte was total madness but so?
i wan another nyte with ma girlfrenz!!!

yes, i know, 19 is no big deal but still?
cant they jus let mi off some nights.
weekdays i dun go out.
im doing damn well in sch. wad else they want?
does ma mum hav to call like 20times to ask mi to get home.
i din lie wad. they always know where am i.
i dun smoke, i dun stay over at ppl's hse and
i dun fuck ard! freak know to have this kind of parents.
ma mum will nv understand.
stubborn n unreasonable!
yah, i love her still...
wadeva!!!

-vern-

Friday the 13th

2005-05-14T13:15:00.000-07:00

Friday the 13th. it does nt affect me at all. blessed. haha
ok, maybe a lil. i din wake up on time for class AGAIN.
argh.

i stayed home to watched mtv till 5pm.
head down to town. to sch i mean.
to hand in assignment n collect exam results. 90%!!
nw, the more i deserve some treats. haha
Congras to Kurui who passed his bike TP.
see! i told u. swensen, dun forget.
n our shopping trip.
KokKheong, dun u think i will forget
the birthday treats to pasta!

i met sayang at abt 7plus for dinner in town.
walked ard for a while - aimlessly.
bumped in Sufian. sit down, tok tok for a while
magoodness. i think he's sick or something. become
so skinny. no longer the gd looking boy i knew.
argh, wadeva.
aiyah, we jus bumped into a lot of ppl last nyte la.
the toilets in orchard point is freaky scary.
darling came out n say he can sense something.
the 2 guys who were abt to enter quickly turn n walked away.
hahaha. 2 guys also scare.

well well, we headed down to brewerkz
cos sayang's grp of seniors F.Is were there drinking and chilling out.
i cant remember how many guys i shook hands with
but they all look damn gd!
n one mdm. she is gorgeous.
i swear last nyte was the safest nyte ever to club.
all were policemen, wad is there to fear? LOL
most of them got HIGH even before they head down
to the nx destination.
its jus a nyte filled with fun, laughter, small talks,
hell lotsa drinks and puke.
and know wad? sayang got NDP training the nx day.
hes the trainer, not the one marching thou.
argh, mummy called like 20times?
(ok, mayb not so many)
can forget abt clubbing with emma tonyte already. :(
nvm, we shall hang out again nx time k?
and the FIs grp too!

kamal, u said the SOC boys/men/guys look the best,
im telling u now that the FIs rocks! LOL
ps. im not drunk.

-vern-

Girls!!

2005-05-12T01:35:00.000-07:00

... eeeeewwww....

yea. vern's right. my sms-es today were so wuu wuu... tapi hot kan? heh. ala relax la bro azri.. once in awhile ma. 'tonight be a naughty girl' ... la! vern, when can we 'have fun', erm.. again? without our guys?? k dammit. disgusting. eh i suddenly thought of that person who tagged us the other day remember ...? saying that we are lesbians? hey you there! WHERE ARE YOU? COME LA JOIN US! hah. *we know who you are... heh heh.... no worries. we are good people ;)*

well. went jb with dearest ma today. makan and 'pamper' ourselves. both did facial.. pedicure.. bla bla.. then makan. back to s'pore in the evening. its 'bestfriends' day! wuhoo~ Love you, Girlfriend! heh. ;)

-hern-

whoohoo!

2005-05-11T23:51:00.000-07:00

Listening to Taufik Batisah - One last.

Would like to start off by saying "Darling, I Love You"

Love Suffers long and is kind
Love does not envy
Love does not parade itself, is not puffed up.
1 Cor 13:4

i had a great but tiring day.
sch was great. we had hell lotsa fun in class.
ma presentation when on well except that i missed
out some lines. haha. nvm.

after sch, sheena n i walk down to taka to look at shoes.
but there werent any nice ones.
nx, we walk down, nop, we took a bus. haha
wanted to walk but lazy ah. okok,
we took a bus to PS.
went to spotlight to get some craft work materials
and i love those fabrics there.
set ma eyes on this black cloth with colourful polka dots.
total maddness n retro! love it. gonna find a tailor b4 i buy the cloth.
nx, we went to action city to look at figures n toys.
so interesting and sheena is going crazy over all the toys. haha
she said she had a very very very bad childhood. like real!
den, ma turn to go crazy. X:odus shoes!!
i bought a pair of caroline polka dots heels.
i dunno if im gonna wear it but i totally love it.
we den took the train to lil india.
we talked abt everything. from pri sch to sec sch to now. wow..
walked pass this shop on the way to the train station.
it was like heaven to sheena. haha
all the indian's jewellery. super duper nice n cheap!
we bought so many bangles n bindis.
its jus a small shop. but dun be shocked.
we spent an hr inside!

sayang said his squad got drill tonyte so
we cant meet. so yah, i thout i will go home.
but by the time i walk to the train station at lil india,
he called. asked if i still wanna meet him in town for dinner.
of cos i said ok. miss him lots.

oh yah, dear is not a trainee or recuit or anything.
he is the F.I of the squad. he took charge of most stuff. thats' y
he can cancel plans to meet mi! hahaha
shhh... gd for mi, gd for him n gd for his squad!
everyone gets to rest early. cheers!
so proud of you, sayang. young but capable.
dun worry abt those F.Is-to-be. they r jus nt up to the standard yet.
some ppl jus have the talent in them. ppl like u!
i love the smell of their jealousy thou. geez

makan subway for dinner. ma fingers stil smell of
the sweet onion teriyaki chicken. lol
walk ard fareast and den headed home.
im kinda broke. oh no, shopped too much this month.
mummy mummy pls.....

hern! ur sms-es were disgusting. real yucky!
azri called us the horny bitches. lolz
love u babe

-vern-

The SUN that SHiNEs..

2005-05-10T23:35:00.000-07:00

... its all about that 'SUN'

it's 10th May.. thanks to that SUNSHiNE in my life. ;) cheers.

-hern-

Updates

2005-05-10T17:30:00.000-07:00

ok, im back to blog. will try to remember wad happened the past few days.
i have got supre poor memory. tend to forget wad i did and wad need to be done.
i guess i pay too much attention to things that doesnt concern me. shall change!

i was at chiltern house on friday evening. have another crazy evening with
ma classmates. it was real maddness. darling came down after work to
help out and to join in the fun. den we went town. thout wanna meet hern n kamal
but from bukit timah to suntec is like so WRONG. haha
makan swensens den take a walk along orchard rd with sayang
at 12am. took some crazy pictures and laugh till i got no idea wad time.

sat.i went to the zoo. serious. i love it. another fun and relaxing day there.
dinner was great. prata pisang - prata with bananas. one word to descibe it : SHIOK!
i din do anything on sunday. Mothers' day, yes i know. but ma mum is out
early in the morning for a meeting. meeting on sunday?! wth
now u ppl know where and how come i got money to shop all day long ya!
lolx.

sayang took off on monday, FOR ME! we have got no plans.
jus wanna be home, slacking on the couch, watching DVDs whole day and
eating nutella w/o bread. we looked at old photographs and we talked abt the past.
have been talkin abt the past the past few days. dunno y that topic came up.
it was funny at times. but jealousy and anger arises too.
shall not go into details becos it is between us. it doesnt matter becos
its the past. the past cant haunt us unless we allow it to.
went out for dinner and bump into
tahyah n nicky. hmmm... seeing them is like seeing clubs. hahah
anyway, tahyah is off to bali today. and Emma is back from U.S!!
ma all times fav darling. Jeremy betta let her off one nyte to be with me.

was jus reading thru sayang and my friendster testimonials.
everyone said nice things. how nice of everyone. but hope all are true.
it was funny reading some. frenz will always be frenz. cheers!
sayang's was all abt him being nice, charming, cool, cute, gd rugby player,
gd dancer blah3. wadeva nice things u wan, he has it la.
i cant help but laugh den sms him this
"all ur frenz are liars. they r trying to cling on to u. LOL"
ok, maybe u all dun understand.
but we laugh hell lots msg-ing each other jus a few mins ago.

argh, im suppose to present the
fannelboard story telling tomorrow!! wish me luck.
1000 words more for ma essay and 4 lesson plans. due date? TOMORROW!
shit man.

-vern-
tok too much today.

* SUNSHiNE *

2005-05-09T21:10:00.000-07:00

... good monday.

... met him after work lastnite. drove to lau pa sat to buy lotsa makan. back to store and had a big super supper with his bux partners after their closing - was Fine.

... driving around with him and just us alone for that few hours - was Heaven.

-hern-

Ketawe saje la!

2005-05-08T00:40:00.000-07:00

... hoi hoi.

... dont know what has got into me now. now! at this point of time. crapping. talking shit. poor my beautiful darlings - bai and veron.. layan-ing me at msn now. hahahaha. ya, people are right - im crazy. bye. heh. heh. heh. heh. hah. hah. hah. hah. hoi. hoi. hoi. hoi. hoi. hai. hai. hai. hai. hai. hai. hai. la. la. la. la. la. la. la. la. la. hhmm. hhmm. hhmm. hhmm. ....... tired pulak. k la daaa. dada. dada. dada. dada. mama. mama. mama. mama. mama. mama. OH YA! MAMA'S day today! Happy Mothers' Day to my dearest ibu - Mdm Sairah Omar. Veron's Ma - Mdm Leong. Azri's Ma - Mdm Norima. Bai's Ma - Mdm Maimon. SUNSHiNE's Ma - Mdm Aidon.

... you rock big time mamaS! WE LOVE YOU. :)

-hern-

i smile again

2005-05-05T22:10:00.000-07:00

that butterfly kisses entry was crap. i dunno why in the world i put that in.
forget it.

i woke up thinking i will go JP today. i knew hern was bz with her mama
but still i msged her and got the reply i expected. its ok darling. :)
i msged mich instead and to ma surprise, she said yes
and can tell from the reply that shes so excited! hahaha.
i am too. so many things to catch up on. it was fun having lunch wit her.
not fun, jus...erm... happy? hee
its nice having someone to talk abt the childish past and some
private stuff that not everyone can understand. thanks mich!
we are all grown up now. :)
oh yah, not forgetting the orea mcflurry.
i din even finish half and my bus came. haha
mich got to finish 1 and 3/4 of mcflurry. sure to put on weight tis time round. :p

it was weird standing at the interchange waiting for mich.
so many different ppl giving me different kind of looks.
esp those students out there. im glad ma company and i got thru that
stage of life. but seriously, im so uncomfortable!
bump into quite a no. of ppl todae. some said HI, some din.
ibrahim said hi and even talked to me while im waiting for mich.
nice to see him.
saw kamal buying cookies. like usual. as always. haha
poor kamal, got money, got food, got cookies but no sunshine. lolx
not ma fault hern, he din call mi and i arrived after he makan.
so he got to eat alone. geez

im typing this entry with smiles and giggles. really. im mad.
yesterday afternoon was great too. the coffee and the cheesecake from
coffee bean was yum yum~ and i have a gd company to tok to.
nice and funny to tok abt the early teenage years.
it was even more funny when i thout of kurui showing me his sec 1 picture! lolx
okok, it wasnt him that i met yesterday.

even ma dear hern got no time to tok to me anymore. hmph!
nvm. i understand i understand. its ok.

3 days nv meet ma ayang already. he's so bz that he din even have
the time to go for coffee at nyte. and knw wad? he's selected to be the guard
of honour for Dr Wee Kim Wee's funeral tmr. its a solemn event but
he's gonna wear the NO.1 uniform. so smart!
remember to watch the news tmr and be prepared to catch
ma sayang LIVE on channel News Asia. hehehe

im gonna do some work. chaoz

-vern-
coffee at nyte.

Butterfly kisses

2005-05-04T19:30:00.000-07:00

There's two things I know for sure.
She was sent here from heaven,
and she's daddy's little girl.
As I drop to my knees by her bed at night,
she talks to Jesus, and I close my eyes.
And I thank God for all of the joy in
my life, But most of all, for...

Butterfly kisses after bedtime prayer.
Stickin' little white flowers all up in her hair.
"Walk beside the pony
daddy, it's my first ride."
"I know the cake looks funny,
daddy, but I sure tried."
Oh, with all that I've done wrong,
I must have done something right
To deserve a hug every morning,
And butterfly kisses at night.

Sweet sixteen today,
She's looking like her momma
a little more everyday.
One part woman, the other part girl.
To perfume and makeup,
from ribbons and curls.
Trying her wings out in a great
big world. But I remember...

Butterfly kisses after bedtime prayer.
Stickin' little white flowers all up in her hair.
"You know how much I love you daddy,
But if you don't mind,
I'm only going to kiss you on
the cheek this time."
With all that I've done wrong
I must have done something right.
To deserve her love every morning,
And butterfly kisses at night.

All the precious time
Like the wind, the years go by
Precious butterfly
Spread your wings and fly

She'll change her name today.
She'll make a promise,
and I'll give her away.
Standing in the bride room
just staring at her,
she asked me what I'm thinking,
and I said "I'm not sure,
I just feel like I'm losing my baby girl."
Then she leaned over....and gave me....

Butterfly kisses, with her mama there
Sticking little flowers all up in her hair
"Walk me down the aisle, daddy, it's just about time"
"Does my wedding gown look pretty, daddy?"
"Daddy,
don't cry."
With all that I've done wrong,
I must have done something right
To deserve her love every morning,
And butterfly kisses
I couldn't ask God for more, man, this is what love is
I know I've gotta let her go, but I'll always remember
Every hug in the morning, and butterfly kisses...

Chak!

2005-05-04T00:40:00.000-07:00

... panas nye.

... the temp. is crazy these days. but still alhamdulilah. nways, ibu back in town with sis. mothers' day coming! wuhoo~ well, nothing much to write la lately. hhmm.. hah. (part ni boring sikit. i know) ... met SUNSHiNE for lunch yesterday. together with dada. haha. poor old man of mine.. all alone. lucky got good daughter like me. can company him go makan with daughter's 'fren' somemore. best tak? its was a hell of makan and minum day for us. left banquet.. famous amos's cookies.. watermelon fruit.. a cup of sweet drink.. sat outside mos burger (where the apek2 like to sit) and talk talk.. walk a bit then sat at the cinema waiting area.. talk cock.. then went back to banquet for deserts.. tau suan.. his desert - which i dont know what was it.. bandung drink.. walk walk.. grab some sushi. not some. grab sushiS.. then went to MacD for large coke.. haiz. got home then company dada go makan 907's coffeeshop for pratas. yum~ k lah. this is a plain entry man. i know - nobody's listening. haha. WHO CARES? bye.

-hern-

Betta left alone

2005-05-03T15:30:00.000-07:00

i jus read a fren's blog and suddenly feel like blogging.
she was talking abt the past and felt sorry
but girl, sorry isnt the biggest word nowadays.
it may do wonders to someone but
there is no way its gonna to work for me.

frenz come and go. its ok. we learnt.
we make choices of letting who stay and
who shall go. sometimes its not even ur choice,
its the other party's.
ppl always say that once u have a bf,
frenz arent impt anymore.
fuck those who said that. becos most
of the time, they are the ones who go MIA.
frenz are the pillars my life.
Parents form the structure , frenz hold it
and i have to work my way up.

but den again, sometimes im lazy too.
y make an effort? ppl dun even care.
girls who used to sun-tan
with me, now do it with the bfs.
girls who used to go shopping with me,
nw do it their bfs. now wad?
turn ard and shoot each other in the ass?
ha. im betta left alone.
sun tan alone? maybe not
shopping alone? PERFECT.

darling's parents were so funny last nyte during dinner.
magosh. poor abg mi and the gf.
sorry!! we dun mean it. lolx :x
its really a blessing to have such cool parents
the fun never ends.

sheena my drama queen is gonna to change her
morning classes to night becos she has gotten a job!
erh!!! sheena. i will not miss you. *muackz*
movies marathon. its coming again.

i can see the "ZOO" neon light blinking in ma head again.
hahaha.
sarah, wanna come along?
n who else? karen?

-vern-

Ma own business

2005-05-01T22:07:00.000-07:00

It was a great weekend so far.
went to lil india last evening.
it was so fun!
nice place to grab gd stuff.
darling bought lotsa stuff.
Nop, there isnt any sales.
he jus cant resist those temptation.
his nike shorts, polo tee, singlet and tights.
perfect. one set.
he wanted the nike watch also but
i think its not VERY nice.
ok, me? i din get anything. there isnt anything
for mi to buy unless i wanna start wearing sari.
its very nice thou..

movie marathon last nyte till abt 3am.
Marble, the fatty cat slept with me and
was disturbing me the whole nyte. argh~!!
manja manja whole nyte.
i got ma GUESS bag today. smile.
i have been looking for it high n low.
yet to get my shoes from SUBSTANCE.
shall get it while stock last.

sheena poh! remember the pair of wedges we
saw at MNG which is 89.90?!
i saw a similar pair in BATA.
ok, dun mind the brand. its much cheaper
and jus as sweet. really. serious.
ma darling thinks its suits u too.
when he said so, u got to get it.
hahaha

theres nth much to blog. its all abt wad i do,
where i go and wad i buy.
who wld be interested? ha.
anyway, glad n can see that hern and the
rest of the gang had fun yesterday.
keep on gg.

kurui, chinablack soon. i seriously wont mind
bringing ck n kk. we can jus
leave em along the road. lol

sometimes i think that
some ppl r jus not worth ma time.

wad shall i do tmr?
hmmm..

-vern-

KL here i come! :(

2005-05-01T02:10:00.000-07:00

... morning.

spent my whole monday with him - in his studio!! argh~ we were about to leave then came this dance lecturer who needed help on some vcd whatever thing la. even more argh~~~~ heh. flight delayed - left after his fourty mins of personal video 'tutorial' to that lecturer. i spent most of the time signing in and out of friendster and checking mails. its ok, im not complaining. ;)

dear V and Azri picked us up at borders in the evening. drove all the way to changi for makan. we've had our makan thou. tea tarik time la apa lagi! dropped by east coast's macD for V's fav - MacFlurry.. west coast for Azri's tea chino. or whatever they call it la . hhmm ... and taking pics at a hawker ctr is not a bad idea at all.

well well, leaving for KL 2mrw. be back by mind mnth. will miss whoever worth missing. ;)

-hern-

Haro!

2005-05-01T01:24:00.000-07:00

... Laughs.

... it was a day of laughter. i had fun with those kids. haha. went to town with evr so happening apek and azri. mr cool guy, shahrul. along with three other chickies - bai, june and adeline. wuhoo~ beautiful ladies. thanks guys for the day... shall do it again someday? ;)

... thats all. im tired. Daaa...

-hern-

2005-05-01T01:20:00.000-07:00

Five stars for "MADAGASCAR" !!

-hern-

Joy & Pissed

2005-04-30T00:30:00.000-07:00

YEeah! I completed ma assignment at about 6plus.
quickly took a shower den rush to sch in cab to hand in.
phew~
met sayang for dinner but every where was like PACKED.
cant stand it.
hungry like hell alr. aiyah. nvm
went to breeks to makan. blah3
i kinda enjoyed the train ride home with sayang.
its nice to take train together sometimes.
no car no cab no bus.
silence is always between us when we take
cab or when he drives.
except sometimes the music will be blasting
like hell.

anger is rushing thru ma blood now!
idiot she. copycat!
its ok veron..
she is jus jealous and incapable of having her own ideas!
freak!
Hern, u shld know who!

forget abt her. i think i need to shed
some weight. but i cant say no to food
and im too lazy to say yes to exercise.
wahahaha.
shhh...

Friday is here!

2005-04-29T16:00:00.000-07:00

Friday is here again! whoo.. thats fast
meaning ma assignment is due today!
argh..its 80% done. left with the essay to write.
i wanna complete it later so that i can hand in tonyte.
lastest submition time is 9.30pm.
IF i can complete, den i shall meet sayang in town
for dinner or something.
i miss him.
hasnt been paying much attention to him tis few days due to
sch work and stuff. sorry ayang. u know i love u still.
yesterday was our 8th months anniversary. wasnt much
of a thing actually. months seems short. years seems impossible.
NO NO! its possible. :) haha

ok, tis morning, i went to lil india with chitra and sheena.
haha. during th 30min break, we took a cab there, chitra bought
something n we took a cab back again.
wad an amazing pl to go. i have NEVER been there.
ayang drove passed it but i have nv gotten out of
the car to walk ard. nx field trip wld be LIL INDIA!!

now im home typing ma essay.
run out of idea. jus an hr ago, i was all over the floor
making a diorama. daddy came in and he was like
"WTH! how old r u now?!" lol.
den.. made butter. it was a tiring process.
PLS do not try it at home ALONE.
hahaha.

k lah, betta go do ma work.
its a long weekend ahead.
enjoy!

* SUNSHiNE *

2005-04-29T00:15:00.000-07:00

... im smiling :)

... planned to surprised him at his studio this afternoon. but the lil SUNSHiNE was still on his bed when i called to check where he was. tot he reached sch liao. haiya. no more surprise lo. and so we met up for long john's breakfast at cck. the cute lil SUNSHiNE of mine gave me a surprise instead! went MIA while i was waiting for our food to arrived. came back carrying BodyShop's paper bag. hhmm hhmm.. all smiling. the usual naughty smile. haha. know what? he bought me White Musk moisturising hand cream and a nail shiner. hee~ cute la he. took 190 and he spent the whole journey to town doing my nails. polish it till its super shiny. wahaha. k maybe not super. but hey, that was something man! i felt like a princess. wee wee~ rested my head on his shoulder.. closed my eyes and woke up to find my nails in a better 'state'. he pampered me like anything le. hee~ thats what SUNSHiNEs are for, honey. heh. Thanks so much SUNSHiNE.

... sorry to Dear peeps. had to cancel the badminton game today. supposed to meet them this evening. but had to attend to some other stuff. well, sat yea? will have the whole day out Bros.

... ok. im out of here. got to make an important phone call. haha. going school 2mrw to submit some docs to crystal. and of coz, company SUNSHiNE at his studio. he's not working 2mrw, so hopefully we get to spend the whole day together.. not having to meet any clients and me not having to... erm, i dont know. im so not occupied! wahaha. k lah.. nitenite.

... oh ya. to Bai, all the best for your paper today! to veron, hope your assignments are all ready to be submitted. to sheena, i miss you Bitch. heh.

I need a printer!

2005-04-26T15:47:00.000-07:00

can anyone pls help me decide which printer to buy?
i seriously n urgently need one.
if not i will always b in woodlands or mum's office to print
my stuff.
im goin to get it later. todae. i must!

new blogskin. i like i like! love it!
ma fav purple+butterfiles. sweeet!

okok, betta go b4 hern call to nag.
more to update ltr.

-vern-

Bored

2005-04-26T14:45:00.000-07:00

... feeling so bored here.

... just got off shower. sigh. nothing to do xia.. so bored. oh ya, going for interview later at 7 at Infinite Frameworks for production crew / stage hands for a video shoot. hhmm.. thanks to kak june who gave me this lobang. she's working for national geographic channel seh. power ah? :) so anyways, hopefully i get thru. it'll be good to be doing something in relations to my future. hee~

... had a small gathering with old sch peeps. only at jp but was great enough to bring me home smiling. i dont know, its just me. i need friends. ok not that that i cant live without them but hey its just part of my everyday. i hate to be alone. i hate to feel lonely. i dont like to be sitting alone at home (like now) and do nothing. thats the reason why im always out.. keeping myself occupied or having friends coming over to my place or me lepaking at friends's place. heh. i appreciate my friends alot. espacially those who have been there with me and are now still there.. going thru thick and thin. well, you know who you are. love you peeps till bits.

... new blogskin again. thanks dear v for the hardwork. hehe.. i like~

... k la im out of here. SUNSHiNE busy with editing-like-whats-new. sheena working. veron? bai? on the way home from sch!! wuhoo~ meeting them now. yes! im not bored anymore. heh.

-hern-

Whats next?

2005-04-25T23:20:00.000-07:00

I had zinger meal for brunch today.
yummy but couldnt finish. get down to business.
do ma work den get ready for sch.
not sch actually. i jus need to be there to hand in assignment.
dad thout i gt sch. keep asking
"wad time r u gg out? u r gonna be late!"
oh gosh.
okok, i got out early. go JP meet herne and
some old members. haha
they r funny. as usual. sweet old memories.
nth has change actually. wen we meet,
things r still the same.
ps. honey baby pls dun think too much.
muackz!

left halfway to town to hand in assignment
n to meet ayang. ayang ended work late. as usual.
i shop ard and broke something! feel so bad.
train ride to town was terrible.
one fat guy sat beside me. den mums with babies, old ppl
all board n alighted. n den wheneva i wanna giv up ma seat,
someone else will do it b4 me. making me feel so bad.
not jus that, change train, ppl pushing ard and everything
until ppl quarrelled and scolded each other.
one scary uncle pushed ppl away somemore. argh~
nightmare.

had dinner with sayang. hand in assignment.
coffee at starbucks.
home sweet home.
sayang reminded me that its a working/schooling day.
NO SHOPPING!

-vern-

3am.

2005-04-25T03:10:00.000-07:00

urgh~ i cant slp. that explains y im here typing
another boring entry.

darling gonna wake up in 3 hrs to go back camp.
PTI course is ending soon! darling pls tahan a bit more.
dun stress. did i tell u that im ur biggest fan ever? *hugs*
u can do it!
ppl always say "go in a boy, comes out a man"
i think ma darling go in a boy, comes out a baby. heez
come home, whine, manja, slp. thats wad baby does, isnt it?
sayang dear~

cant belief i got thru the 3months. come to think of it,
its kinda easy. cheers!
i belief theres a future for the 2 of us and den
im proud to say "i went thru his NS life with him"
those who din get to go thru it with their partners,
i wld say u lose out hell lot. its a pretty tough trial but nice and steady one,
compared to those third-party problems, wad bitches,
scandals and whaeva.

ok, a msg to jason. no one is too sinful to go to heaven.
as long as u repend, god loves u still. stop having negative
thoughts becos He has a more
wonderful plan for u.
Be who u are and who god wants u to be. pls God
rather than human.
i love u brother.
smile

-vern-

Keep out!

2005-04-25T01:20:00.000-07:00

i think i have a lil prob with ppl ard me. recently.
so, keep away!

dun give mi that damn face cos
i dun care.
continue being a bitch cos
i dun care too.
keep on showing ur new boy cos
i dun care.
he looks like shit!
stop asking me for so much cos
i wont give.
stop pestering me cos
i hate you!
stop calling me cos
i know when u do that,
means u have no one else.
sorry babe, i got no time for u too.
fu*k off.

i slept the whole day today.
den met sayang in woodlands drive 14.
did ma work. had pizza for dinner.
watched a sad love story.
sayang drove.
home sweet home.
love u sweetheart.
nyte.

-vern-

Still as Sweet

2005-04-25T00:40:00.000-07:00

... "endang, thank you so much for the dkny watch. you know, i love it. i do hate you sometimes for being some kind of a bitch but i love you all the time sis. miss you."
............. an sms from sis. im not in talking terms with her lately. haha. well actually we do talk but only on general stuff. we havnt been exchanging sweet and loving smses to each other like we used to.. until after her birthday. hhmm.. well not because of the gift watch and the swensen's dinner.. but i guess its because of this lil thing that i told her.. just 'something'. heh. nevertheless, she's still the best sis anyone could ask for. despite her kiddy-ness and her 'bochap-ness', she's still very much of a lovely sis. LOVE YOU too Dear Girl.

-hern-

Hern smilin..

2005-04-24T23:55:00.000-07:00

... hi.

... im done with sch!! wuhoo~ well just to sch for submission 2mrw. lots of plans comin up.. time to just eat sleep shop lepak. yes!!

... i had a beautiful time yesterday. typical date for me and SUNSHiNE. you know, the usual agenda on a couple's list? out for nice dinner then head home? yea. did that on purpose. hah. we realised that we've never done that before. haha. its always before-after school and from somewhere meeting. haiz, two busy students. now that we have all the time in our hands.. we just want to be like a normal and typical couple - well at least once in awhile. heh. it was all casual and sweet.. took public transport to town.. had dinner at Anatolia at far east.. walked all the way down to PS.. has swensen's chocolate peanut buttercup.. then took the train ride home.. simple. :)

... met fen shahrul azri and apek awhile ago. small last min 'gathering' at apek's place. haha. lepak with those guys for while. hvnt seen those kids for quite sometime. we meeting up again 2mrw for dinner or something.. hhmm.. whoever reading this, call me if u wanna join us! wee wee~

... now that im off for my hols, i'll be away frequently. got to be in KL. unless i grab a job here.. hhmm.. will be missing my peeps. thats why im making an effort to meet all of them up.. given the days im left with now.. sobs.

-hern-

Fuck. Scram

2005-04-23T16:00:00.000-07:00

Its sat afternoon. waking up feeling gd
but i hope i can slp more. no fear no anger. :)
i miss ma ayang.

shit! i still got hell lots of work to be done. ok, wads new man.
the more work i have, the lazier i gets. enjoying life with ayang onli.
he took me out for supper on thursdae.
we took one hour to drive from jurong to holland v. hahaha
ma fault ma fault. i wanna go jln kayu den after that change ma mind.
we still got there of cos. NYDC cheesecake rocks.

friday.was in town in the early afternoon shoppin
with ayang. had subway blah blah blah
2 birthday parties to attend. one is ma gd fren. one is
ayang's buddy. both turned and turning 21.
the KEY to freedom!!
thank u Pearly for the dinner. the cake was damn gd.
sarah sarah! lets have one for our birthday too.
but this time i want it to be strawberries instead. hee
anyway, enjoy ur trip, pearly!

nx party was greattttttttterrible.
the place was cosy. the music was nice.
the dance was good. the game was fun.
the drinks was slup~~
the crap was crazy. the swing was sexy.
the laughter was great. the fight was intolerable.
the waitress was a bitch. Ma "buddy" was a bastard
Fuck off FULLSTOP.

ppl always say, dun drop tears for those who r not worthy of it.
those who r worthy of it, wont make u cry.
ouch~ easier say then done. no matter wad,
LOVE U TAHYAH.

i think the more guys fight, the betta they bond.
haha. whaeva.
fucking hell.

-vern-

One more to go..

2005-04-22T16:20:00.000-07:00

... good friday.

... wah wah wah. left with last assignment to be submitted on mon. ubin's large drawing then im off for my WEE WEE HOLIDAY! hhmm..

... sis 21st birthday yesterday. had dinner at swensen's. the one near heeren. ibu's fav. phew, lucky no long Q. chocolate layer cake from mandarin, again, ibu's fav. heh. it was a sweet and simple fam dinner. shop a lil here and there. SUNSHiNE join us later in the evening after school. aiyah he and ibu - talk talk and talk.

... my throat's killing me. losing my voice. cannot sing too much liao. haha.

-hern-

Dad's craze

2005-04-19T20:37:00.000-07:00

Ma dad is crazy! he is blasting some unbearable music
out there in the living room now!
yes, i do have a BIG living room but
sound do travel!! i even have to makan ma dinner in
ma room. -_-
argh~~!!i still can hear the music.
i hope some AWAKE policeman out there
can come n give us a warning
or something. really.

went shopping with sheena after sch today.
nth seems to attract us.
n.. everywhere seems to be
having SALES.

Poor darling. he's still in P.A
no dinner no rest no honey. hee..
miss u dear.

PA, that reminds me of the dinner last nyte.
hern spent half of the day here
baking. haha. den meet azri
n kamal for dinner. the 2 guys nv stop talking about
serving the nation. they seems to love it.
gd investment for the nation. LOL

new assignment came in todae. that adds on to ma piling
assignment. 28 lesson plans to go.
3 2500 words essay to write. crazy.
i realli start to think that the world is crazy.

-vern-

Great Weekend

2005-04-18T13:50:00.000-07:00

weekend was perfect for me. my relatives all came over on sat for
some mini gathering and we all had fun.
good food great fun!

dearie pick mi up at 7.30am, nop, 7.45am. thats damn early
but its ok. we r both fresh. fresh from e oven. haha
went to pump petrol, car wash den Mac breakfast.
i went back to sleep, he went for his bike prac.
funny! a guy carrying a helmet but drives to
the driving centre. lolx

dear, did i tell u that accidentally kick Marble down the bed?
hahah. tat fat kitten is taking too much space lah. lolz

ok, off to town for shopping but b4 that we had subway.
thank god ma darling is addicted to it. yes! no more
unhealthy fastfood. met Jason. do nth. sit down tok cock.
but we realli had a hard time meeting up. we at heeren, he at fareast
we at fareast, he at taka. idiot.

7pm,off to pasir ris. jus to makan satay, n BBQ stingray.
so sorry kurui, azri wanted to call but i know lah..
u wont come. somemore so far. hahah!
anyway, i had BBQ stingray! nx time will bring u along k.
yummy~

shit! betta get gg to do ma assignments. hell lot of stuff to do.
oh yah, i din know ma tagboard is so popular recently.
seeing the word "lesbian" make me think of someone.
yah hern? wahahha.

sarah!!! have a nice day in school today. hugs!

going once, going twice, GONE

-VERn-

Morning!

2005-04-16T02:20:00.000-07:00

... morning.

... SUNSHiNE was late to meet me for sch today! hah. supposed to meet at 0740hrs, j.e. but i ended up making my own way to cck to wait for the lil boy. haha. nah, its fri so its 'zai's lepak session day' .... haha. took our own sweet time. had our beautiful breakfast at macD then off to sch. ayang sheena's not well today. sobs. got to class and as per norm, people were all over. lepaking around with zai. gone case~ we were all dismissed after showing him some progressions. idiot he.. just take our attendance then chaow. my whole group then left for art friend @ bras basah to grab some materials. to centrepoint for lunch and spent our afternoon there to do the groupshit. heh. its our final assignment.. due next friday. bai came to lepak along with my group. bla bla.. talk cock abit.. took short naps in between.. took pics.. makan abit.. do some work then CHAOW. left at 5. hey, at least i did some work!! haha. met SUNSHiNE at cityhall. had makan at banquet jp while SUNSHiNE went to settle his reservice stuff at jrg police station.

... went for makan again at beach road. this time with sofian around. SUNSHiNE been busy with upcoming video projects. haiz. apart from sch assignments.. he still has his starbucks to attend to.. his new part time job as camp instructor somemore.. pack. but still have the time for me.. how sweet. haha. k dalah. ;)

... im left with three assignment for school. then im done for foundation year. wuhoo~ animation.. tues. art history theory paper.. tues. pulau ubin's large drawing.. wed. zai's.. thurs. well.. cant wait to lepak with my peeps everyday. EVERYDAY. haha. yalah, like as if i dont need to go KL xia. haiz, speaking of which, im going off later. will be back by sun. till then! Daaa..

... oh ya, dear shamin's back from perth!! yey yey!! she's having her semester break. cant wait to meet her 2mrw.. wohoo~ will do it again girl. ;) go pusing2 and visit all the clubs in KL. wahaha. dont tell our mamaS.. just you, me and sis ya? will book a room at concorde and have the time of our life! hee~ a small note to dearest V, pls make yourself free next week!! -small eh? heh.

-hern-

its jus another day

2005-04-14T01:40:00.000-07:00

Miss my dear Lord Father..

Sheena the elephant was so funny today.
sorry dear, i cant help it but laugh!

spent 4 hrs today in the library looking thru
children's books. still, ma 20 lesson plans,
none is done. not even the theme is up.

ayang bought me a adidas jacket.
jus a simple n normal one but its real.
i dun like fake stuff. :)
Its of gd used today esp when im in the lib.
thank u sweetheart.

poor kurui. think he kena kidnap by some
aliens. dun even know the meaning of Mats n Minahs
but it was funny, trying to explain to him. haha
no offense, but if u dun like it, den dun be one.

from the newspaper on saturday,
Q: what do u call a young mat?
A: a mini mat.

-vern-

Hern's back!

2005-04-14T01:10:00.000-07:00

... hey hey.

... back on track. chey! pe je. been freakin busy with not only school but some other issues. haiz. nvrm.. nways, had critical studies presentation today on wayang kulit. wuhoo~ tip top la! haha. ok was happy with it overall. ;) ... well well, how was hern's mornin? great!! why? got to meet my SUNSHiNE! haha. last time we met was at NUH's A & E monday morning. oh ya, ibu was admitted. haiz. k not going into that. sobs. SUNSHiNE surprised me with his presence. only dada and sis at NUH. i needed somebody. SUNSHiNE came at the right time. alahai, SUNSHiNE ma.. he really lift up to that title xia. heh. thanks for taking time to be by my side, SUNSHiNE. :)

... had dinner at banquet today with ... need i say more? hah. we then met ibu for some kopi session at macafe. its been awhile since SUNSHiNE met "stacey's mom.... lalala...." .. eh, salah. "herne's mom... lalala..." ... nvrm if u dont get it. hah.

... ibu visited my blog last nite. lol. v, she say our blog skin too bright la the colour. she suggest that we change colour or should i say skin? if not we wont have people visiting our blog. hah! aiyah, whatever la Puan Sairah. :)

... im missing my peeps very much. i miss hanging out with them.. veron.. azri.. bai.. and especially peeps from my sec sch.. those 'cartoon' people. haha. ok maybe not all of them. heh. im so looking forward to my two and a half months hols! wuhoo~ k understood la the MIAs now.. but after all these assignments are handed in then im off to my YAHOO land!! im left with like a week more to school. yey yey!

... hey. did i tell you that i got thru my interview? heh. no ya? k lah gua low profile la. haha. i'll be majoring in Technical Theatre Arts for my second year!! :) stage management.. events coordinator kape? hehe. ok dont think to much Hern. it all still balls down to our results for foundation year. haiz, assignment je bersepah nyah! haha. k hope for the best yeah. insya allah.

... k lah, tired liao. got to go. zzzzzzzz.........

-hern-

A burden off ma shoulder

2005-04-11T22:59:00.000-07:00

Finally. one exam down! phew~
tired. it was tough but gd. :)

darling has been running a fever for the
past 3 days. today is his first day of his FI
training n he missed it. temp still
going up, up, up.
oh god, pls spare him.
he's afraid of injections *giggle* and the doc might
wan him warded to do blood test.

i think im seriously suffering from short term memory.
i cant remember wad i did over the weekend.
shopping? oh yah! did some shopping with ayang.
somemore?...

oh ma goodness. sometimes i wonder how come
ppl can remember wad happened during primary and
secondary sch life. i cant remember much anymore.
is it i chose not to remember or i cant?
is it gd or bad?
i guess i chose to forget TOO MANY
things. must change!!

-vern-

Men Vs Women

2005-04-08T14:30:00.000-07:00

Just got back from school. what a tiring day, nope, a morning i mean. i cant belief i actually fell aslp on the bus! tis is the first n the last time im going to do so. gosh~
presentation was gd todae. ms chelvi is foreva saying "excellent" so.. i think we r all immuned.
haha. but great effort afterall.

women are all and always weaker than men.
i only agreed to a certain extend. yes, they r things that only men can do and can manage but
that doesnt make us weaklings. there are women from the middle east countries who remove their womb so that they can be as strong as men!
ok, that part i dun encourage. God made us who we are today.
dun go against Him.

i hate guys who get themselves so drunk that they dunno wad the hell they r saying and doing.
dumbass. still so EGO saying "im not, im not" and den look down on girls thinking we will collapse first, ma goodness. we r still laughin away while u r slpin away like a baby boy!

yawn.. im slpy

-vern-

POP!!

2005-04-07T09:48:00.000-07:00

wohoo~!! ma ayang POP today! so happy so exciting.
idiot him, yah yah cos he got the BEST TRAINEE AWARD.
happy happy.

so tired. went class chalet last nyte.
drink like crazy with the guys. play games too.
some ppl, as usual, jus onli know how to complain,
eat, play, slp. sit there n wait for ppl to bbq for them!
assholes

i seriously dunno wad to write in here.

-vern-

Shaq

2005-04-05T11:20:00.000-07:00

... Oh ShaQ.

... hahaha. mati lo. no more links ler... my my. all contacts gone xia. in school now.. was supposed to do animation but heh heh.. im doing bloggimition. whatever that means. shitty... wanted to put up tagboard but ... "tipah tertipu" ....!! haha.. aiyah. so not skilled la Hern. alahai.. how now? nevermind la. "man man lai lo"... sorry dear V. ask karen, emily, bird ..... bla bla bloggie add hor!! will do it again 2gether again.. sleep over my place tonight. * yeah*

-hern-

True Love

2005-04-03T22:00:00.000-07:00

= True love is found when u see her flaws,
understand her weakness and
overlook her imperfection =

-vern-

Chilten House Rocks!

2005-04-02T23:26:00.000-08:00

sufian, since u always ask abt ma dad, now, let me tell u a gd news.
daddy is back from shanghai! went to pick him up yesterdae.
erm.. gonna have a lil curfews here n there again. but its ok.
i miss daddy anyway.

stupid lappy give me so much prob!!
kurui was helpin mi with it n entertaining me till abt 4am?
gosh, n i woke up at 8am to go chilten house to meet
chitra sheena all for grp project.
chilten house is a kindergarten. an awesome one.
every kid's dream house manz.
hopefully the supervisor there needs a partimer. haha

darling came to help out here n there
den went for his rugby.
so nice of him to dump his fav sport half way
to come and pick me up. thanks u honey.
ai yah, he wants mi to attend his bro's b'dae bash, thats y..
right dear? haha

had a long talked with him tis evening. abt everything thats
standing in our way recently. a roller coaster kinda talk.
got shouts got whispers got everything la. haiz ya.
As long as there is trust, nth is gonna break us apart.
no matter how angry and upset i am, im gonna stay.

im gonna smile again.. just for him. :)

-vern-

Heys!!

2005-04-02T02:10:00.000-08:00

... erm, HI?

... im back. been busy? well perhaps. heh. been hangin out with the new 'lovebirds' lately - sofian and bai. AND SUNSHINE too - of coz. its always the dinner-ice cream-tea tarik session. monday - bedok for dinner, east coast for macflurry then tanjong rhu's bridge. tuesday - beach road for dinner then suntec's starbucks. wednesday - zamzam's murtabak then suntec's starbucks to pick SUNSHINE up. thursday - met dear v for lunch then to bai's place. afterwhich, she came over to helped me with my sculpture. hee~ friday - went to town with rachelle and SUNSHINE after sch before meeting sofian and bai for dinner at lau pa sat, telok blanga for a quick 'tour' then west coast macD for macflurry. heh. best tak? been coming home late too. sssyyhhh..... :x

... oh ya, had so much fun at ubin the other day. kangkang's lesson. went there for our final project. cycling around was the best! cool. plus the great bunch of people.. the day couldnt be any better.

... SUNSHINE's been xtra sweet lately. brought me breakfast for three straight days? yea. muffins.. sandwiches.. bla bla, all sponsored by starbucks. heh. the best thing was, he brought some for my dear classmates too. how sweet can my SUNSHINE be? now i not only look forward to meeting him early in the morning but also look forward to yummy yum yum makan. hee~

... where's dear veron this morning? haiz. we all supposed to go sch together today. veron, bai and myself. we start sch at 9 so wanted to actually take the train ride together. but the lil sis went back to sleep after she gave me a mornign call at 630. so dissappointing tau. haha. so its was only bai, SUNSHINE and me...

... hows our blog now? better i guess. well maybe not as cool as others but heck la. v is responsible for all this. email here your comments. heh. "hope u'll smile wen u see our blog later. smile k. i know its SO me and not so u at all but smile! HAHAHA" ... that was v msg to me. haha. cute. well, not to worry dear. im pretty fine with it. erm, it'll be better if its GREEN and WHITE rather than PINK, though. LOL. ;) but still, thank you dear girl.

... rite, leaving for KL later. sigh. going up to genting for sis's function. be back by monday morning.. straight to sch. how cool is that, huh? whatever. take care peeps.

-hern-

i Simle.

2005-04-01T18:04:00.000-08:00

Kurui put a smile on ma face by sending me
that cute song "lonely"

thanks.

-vern-

Its April Fool's Day

2005-04-01T02:15:00.000-08:00

its 1st of april again. i hate tis day actually. ppl always scare me wit stupid jokes which is not funny at all. i hope this year all will leave me alone.

Kurui gave me a new name- Depression Babe. lolx.

we talk talk den suddenly i realise that, hey! thats a nice name.

goodness~ wad a name.

but yah, thanks dear. u realli make mi laugh till i drop!

im sure u have cramps in ur stomach too. wahahaha

we and our bbq stingray. still pending! ma gosh

im hungry.

Talked to xinglong. seems like hes upset. but i think ma

conversation with him seems to lighten up his nyte. weehhee..

ok, miss that old fren.

Jason and his new lulu. lolx

hes jus a nice brother. big bro with big responsibilities.

"with great power comes great....responsibilities?" hahaha

sufian's fav quote. oh, i miss him too.

meeting one of ma sweeties for lunch later. cya!

-vern-

Coping with Depression

2005-03-31T00:45:00.000-08:00

depression huh? i was SO shocked when someone pointed out to me that i have signs of depression. ma gosh.

Yes-- Sleeping too much
Yes-- Trouble sleeping
Not Really-- Loss of appetite
Yes-- Withdrawal from friends and family
Yes-- Loss of concentration
Yes-- Lack of energy, no longer interested in activities that u used to enjoyed
Yes-- Uncontrollable crying
Yes-- Feelings of guilt
Yes-- Irritability
No-- Hopelessness
No-- Suicidal thoughts

LOL. Kurui made me laugh till i drop when i told him abt it. maybe he has got depression also.
Its natural isnt it? i have got tasks to be completed of cos i need to be alone to do it. but den again yah, no focus, no leisure, no sleep. meet up with frenz also sianz2. always wan to be home. Im crazy.

Darling is worried cos he thinks he's the cause of it. Abg Azmi who graduated with a degree in psychology says that the first level of depression is due to stress and loneiness.

okok, i need to start meeting up ma crazy frenz. Kurui is dating me out. haha. shhh...
Mich is such a sweetie. was toking to her n showing her some pictures n she praised me.
"You are so pretty,Veron! and Azri, wow, perfect couple."
Haha. love u Mich! muackz.
she wants a guy who has dimples. see that dimpleS. both sides ya.
whoeva who has 2 dimples, msg mi!! hee..

-vern-